lightthefuse

lightthefuse @ 2006-02-15T15:39:00

2006-02-15T20:45:27Z

i just wanted to let everyone know that i'm alive and doing ok. out here in the middle of the ocean. i can't really check any of my civilian e-mail accounts so if anyone wants to keep in touch with me while i'm out here you'll have to e-mail me at christopher.hodge1@cvw7.navy.mil so yeah you should all do that seriously cuz i'll be lonely and bored out here. i can't check my myspace which totally sucks so yeah e-mail me please!!!!!

lightthefuse @ 2006-02-01T10:58:00

2006-02-01T16:48:28Z

lightthefuse @ 2005-08-17T23:01:00

2005-08-18T03:09:23Z

this is kinda of a survey for anyone who actually reads this. if you have a girlfriend/boyfriend that lives in another state and you two can't really be together except for a couple days when you can visit, and you discuss having an open relationship and only one partner takes advantage of it and the other partner feels rejected a little. if you were the rejected partner what would you do? would you break up with someone that could be the love of your life? or do you look past what has happened and stay with them until you can be with them? if everyone would comment and give me some advice, i would greatly appreciate it. thank you everyone.

lightthefuse @ 2005-05-12T02:06:00

2005-05-12T07:06:44Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

lightthefuse @ 2005-01-27T16:17:00

2005-01-27T22:12:15Z

hey everyone that reads this. i'm not sure how many of you there are but whatever. i just wanted to let you guys know that i survived boot camp and now i'm leaner and meaner than ever. boot camp sucked a lot of ass but it's alright now cuz i'm in a school and they're pretty lax about almost everything. i still can't fucking believe that i joined the service but i had to so that i can go to college. so i can take all the bullshit for 4 years of my life and then i'll go back to my happy civilian life where i don't have to listen to anyone and i can pretty much do whatever i want. that will definitely be nice. until then though, i'll try and keep this updated so everyone knows what's going on with me. end.

lightthefuse @ 2004-11-03T20:59:00

2004-11-04T02:25:48Z

i really don't update this thing as much as i should. anyway, i'm hoping that i can get the fuck out of the country soon. cuz i really don't want to be deployed off to whatever country mr. w. wants to bomb next. if i can't get out of the country for some duration of time while that fucktard is still sitting his smelly texan debt building ass in our country's greatest seat of power i'm probably going to have shoot myself in the face with a .50 caliber desert eagle. no i didn't vote because i'm up visiting my friends and i didn't have the chance. i honestly don't think it would have mattered if i had. the electoral college votes override the american public's votes so to me there kinda wasn't a point in voting anyway. and we all know that most of the country's electoral college is in bush's back pocket so fuck it. there is no amount of drugs/alcohol or comfort that could put me in a state of mental bliss to ignore what the hell is going on. our country is basically in the grips of a dictatorship. next thing you know bush will be getting the amendment amended so that he can stay in office until he fucking dies or his stupid buttfuck of a brother will get elected in 2008 and our country will still be a fucking shithole. i'm 21 years old and i'm already up to the point where i don't want to be a contributing member of this country's society. i'm like this because of the 6 years of my working life that i've had, i've realized that it's not going to get any better unless i live like a bagabon and save every penny i don't spend on food and living conditions. it's a neverending cycle to me. you earn money for doing a job and the gov't takes out whatever they need so that they can stay in power. no i'm not saying that our country should be in the grips of anarchy, but i'm very very surprised that there aren't riots on the streets of major cities. the people of this country have been lulled into a depressive apathy. normal people want their lives controlled for them. people want to be told what to do. this process have been going on for years and i wonder how long it's going to take for the people of the country and the world to realize that this shit just isn't fucking working. in some way or form we've all been turned into robots and the only thing we can do to rebel against or programming is to overthrow the gov't. you know not many people know this but it says in our constitution that if we feel that gov't isn't doing it's job correctly, we can overthrow it and start a new system that works. i really believe that it needs to be done. this country needs a war that the people actually believe in. these people need something trueful and uncorrupt to follow that will rally them out of the state of mind that they're in. we need a great leader for this. someone with morals that can be followed. i don't know who that is, but i really hope that he/she appears soon, because i'm tired of living my life without something to live for. end.

show schedule for october/november

2004-10-11T06:59:06Z

10/23 - the faint/beep beep
10/27 - dillinger escape plan/everytime i die
10/29 - the blood brothers/against me! in tampa
11/08 - story of the year cuz jon wants to
11/13 - the fever/VHS or beta
11/15 - black dice
11/22 - the killers
11/24 - the hives

lightthefuse @ 2004-07-29T11:17:00

2004-07-29T15:17:24Z

it's my birthday if anyone didn't know. leave me some love nukkas.

this is why i love ethan pignataro so much.

2004-07-05T16:03:32Z

xsuturemyheartx: hey man.

Auto response from thecomputerKILLS: WHA HOPPEN' ?

xsuturemyheartx: OOOH I MAKE YOU SPEESHAL FLIED LICE!
thecomputerKILLS: hahah whats up ma
thecomputerKILLS returned at 10:40:32 AM.
thecomputerKILLS: n
xsuturemyheartx: chillin chillin
xsuturemyheartx: wat cho doin?
thecomputerKILLS: about to do some homework and eat some breakfast
xsuturemyheartx: mmm sounds like fun.
thecomputerKILLS: YES!
thecomputerKILLS: except for the opposite of that
xsuturemyheartx: hah exactly.
thecomputerKILLS: what are you doin today?
xsuturemyheartx: uuum i might go see spidey 2
xsuturemyheartx: depends on what my rents are doing and when they're doing it.
thecomputerKILLS: sweet. i wanna see that
xsuturemyheartx: yeah it looks pretty good.
thecomputerKILLS: word. i heard it was god
thecomputerKILLS: GOOD
thecomputerKILLS: not god haha
xsuturemyheartx: except i still don't like tobey magay as spider man.
thecomputerKILLS: yeah me either.
thecomputerKILLS: it should be you dude
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHAHA
thecomputerKILLS: you would look HOT in that suit
xsuturemyheartx: yeah cuz then i would be the one making out with kirsten dunst.
thecomputerKILLS: hahaaah werrrd
thecomputerKILLS: i could see your man danglers if you had that on. mmm-mmm
xsuturemyheartx: hahahaha
xsuturemyheartx: and my gayrod.
thecomputerKILLS: true dat
xsuturemyheartx: ha. i would sooo give jake gylenhaal shit after i made out with his gf.
thecomputerKILLS: heheeh
xsuturemyheartx: i'd be like what bitch? i'm spider man. and you're just crazy kid that sees rabbits.
thecomputerKILLS: hahaah
xsuturemyheartx: then i'd run cuz he'd prolly try to kick my ass.
xsuturemyheartx: hahah
xsuturemyheartx: DUDE! they're coming out with aliens versus predator in august!
thecomputerKILLS: hahah yeah i know i dunno how good it looks tho
xsuturemyheartx: have you seen any trailers?
xsuturemyheartx: www.avp-themovie.com
thecomputerKILLS: yeah i saw em all
thecomputerKILLS: hahh
thecomputerKILLS: i mean if you were an alien, would you not just cut yourself and bleed all over everything. its like BAM instant win
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHAHA
xsuturemyheartx: i think the predators have special acid proof armor or something.
thecomputerKILLS: NUH UH! YOURE NOT A PREDATOR!! YOU DONT KNOW
xsuturemyheartx: dude!!
xsuturemyheartx: they hunt the fuckers all the time!!
thecomputerKILLS: im the foremost authority on intergalatic alien combat bitch! BITCH NUH UHHH
thecomputerKILLS: WHATEVA WHATEVA!
xsuturemyheartx: they either have special armor or they're just really hardcore motherfuckers.
thecomputerKILLS: i take it your cheering for predator
thecomputerKILLS: GET TO A CHOPPA!
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHAHA
xsuturemyheartx: eh i don't really care who wins.
thecomputerKILLS: ive always liked the aliens
xsuturemyheartx: all the humans die anyway.
thecomputerKILLS: rock
xsuturemyheartx: did you ever read the comics?
thecomputerKILLS: oh yes
xsuturemyheartx: yeah dude! the predators totally kicked the aliens' asses.
thecomputerKILLS: i kno the aliens are just so much cooler looking tho
xsuturemyheartx: haha that's only cuz giger designed them.
xsuturemyheartx: that's why you like them soo much.
thecomputerKILLS: no! its the extra mouth jaw CHOMPY CHOMPY BIOOTCH
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHA
thecomputerKILLS: they should just get facehuggers all over the predators ass and babys be poppin out of armor everywhere
thecomputerKILLS: they just have to tear the masks off and BIGGITYBAM
xsuturemyheartx: hahaha
thecomputerKILLS: all predator will do is be like "YAYYYY I HAVE A LASER CANNON ON MY SHOULDER YAAAAAAAY"
xsuturemyheartx: hahahahaha
thecomputerKILLS: "AND SHIT-LOCKS! YAAAAAAAAAY" "WHERES MY BOOMRANG"
xsuturemyheartx: hahaha
xsuturemyheartx: what is that, like the special ed version of a predator?
thecomputerKILLS: naw man you didnt hear? thats how they talk
xsuturemyheartx: hahahah
xsuturemyheartx: that's funny, that's not how he talked in the second one.
thecomputerKILLS: i got the ultra rare super special directors cut
xsuturemyheartx: haha yeah right.
thecomputerKILLS: danny glover is half naked for half the movie. its glorious
xsuturemyheartx: oh wait i forgot you're like best friends with danny glover.
thecomputerKILLS: DUH ME AND HIM WERE PARTNERS FOR YEARS!! havent you seen UM ALL of the lethal weapons
xsuturemyheartx: hahahaha
xsuturemyheartx: oh yeah i forgot you have the patrick swayze hairdo going for you.
thecomputerKILLS: and an intense love for rene russo (i think thats who she is)
thecomputerKILLS: haha
xsuturemyheartx: haha exactly. then that blonde foreign chick.
thecomputerKILLS: yeah yeah! that was me!
xsuturemyheartx: hahaha
thecomputerKILLS: im the "bad cop"
xsuturemyheartx: the "psycho"
xsuturemyheartx: why haven't you ever shown me that cool shoulder trick you can do?
thecomputerKILLS: you never asked
xsuturemyheartx: i'm gonna buy a straightjacket just so you show me that trick.
xsuturemyheartx: hahaha
thecomputerKILLS: alright dog. but dont expect me to save your daughter or anything
thecomputerKILLS: so how bout those japanese kids!??
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHA
xsuturemyheartx: those kids are true punk rock.
thecomputerKILLS: yeah they are beyond words
thecomputerKILLS: did you look at all of them!? cuz i did
xsuturemyheartx: haha yeah i did.
xsuturemyheartx: i liked the fat chick with like the half a head of liberty spikes.
thecomputerKILLS: HAHAHAHAH YESS! i like the girl in the brighgt pink napolean suit. i want one of those
xsuturemyheartx: hahaha
xsuturemyheartx: i'll start calling you ethan 3000 then.
thecomputerKILLS: SWEET@!
thecomputerKILLS: did you see dudebro with the safety pins glued to his face ?!?
xsuturemyheartx: nah i missed that one.
thecomputerKILLS: http://www.photosaga.com/Japon%20kids/pages/Harajuku%20Kids%20(47).htm THIS COULD BE US!
xsuturemyheartx: i'll go check it out.
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHAHAH
thecomputerKILLS: http://www.photosaga.com/Japon%20kids/pages/Harajuku%20Kids%20(24).htm here it is
xsuturemyheartx: that's soo us dude.
thecomputerKILLS: i wanna be the one on the left
thecomputerKILLS: he looks TUFF
xsuturemyheartx: hahahah
xsuturemyheartx: with the flava sava?
thecomputerKILLS: YES>! heres will : http://www.photosaga.com/Japon%20kids/pages/Harajuku%20Kids%20(71).htm
xsuturemyheartx: HAHAHAHA
thecomputerKILLS: I LOVE THAT KID!@ hhahahahhhhafhdHHfhh
xsuturemyheartx: that dude on the left looks like the indian guy from young guns.
thecomputerKILLS: HES REALLLY HAPPY CUZ SOMEONE JUST DANGLED A BAG OF CHEEZE PUFFFS IN FRONT OF HIM
xsuturemyheartx: hahaha
xsuturemyheartx: i love fat japanese people.
xsuturemyheartx: it's soo ironic to me.
xsuturemyheartx: we should soo dress up like those two guys for halloween one year.
thecomputerKILLS: haha yes!!!!!
thecomputerKILLS: haah i have to go man hav ea good day. i have to get to work
xsuturemyheartx: alright dude.
xsuturemyheartx: later.
thecomputerKILLS: peace out man ! tlk to you lateer.
thecomputerKILLS signed off at 11:19:20 AM.

lightthefuse @ 2004-06-28T15:02:00

2004-06-28T19:03:12Z

alright people, i'm kinda pissed. i'm going to give everyone who wants to stay on my friends list, this includes aim and here, a week to comment and tell me that they want to be on my friends list. i'm tired of people being on my lists that don't fucking talk to me EVER. so you guys have a week. and don't say that i didn't give you any warning. i'm going to post this on my other journal too just in case. i think i may even delete that journal. anyway, life has been going by day by day. most of the time i'm either at work or asleep. i spend enormous amounts of time on the internet and i think that's kinda sad, but since i don't know anyone in this town and i don't want to know anyone in this town cuz they're all fucking rednecks. and i thought camden was bad. oh shit, camden has nothing on this place. maybe this is all coming from the fact that i work at winn dixie. eh who knows. anyway i managed to get up to savannah a couple of weeks ago. that was cool i spose. i got drunk so yeah. um i doubt i'll be going back up there. seems like i'm not really wanted up there, so fuck it. i mean if someone can prove it to me otherwise, that would be great and i wouldn't feel like shit. anyway, i have tickets to the cure for july 25th, and then hopefully i'll be getting into warped tour in orlando for free. we'll see how things pan out. i'm not too hopeful for anything really. i just want to leave this town. i'm pretty sure that i'm going to take a little trip up to chicago in september. i'm just gonna go up there and check the city out and see what it's like. i think that would be really cool. anyway i think that's everything. end.

lightthefuse @ 2004-06-19T16:19:00

2004-06-19T20:19:22Z

so i think that there should be a party at my house tomorrow since my parents are out of town. so everyone alert your friends and call me or something and maybe we can work something out. end.

lightthefuse @ 2004-06-08T08:26:00

2004-06-08T12:26:28Z

OH MY GOD!!! I HAVE THE HOUSE TO MYSELF FOR THE WHOLE DAY!!! SOMEONE GIVE ME A CALL!! LET'S HAVE A POOL PARTY!!!!!

lightthefuse @ 2004-06-06T09:35:00

2004-06-06T13:35:53Z

so tonite at work, i realized that i am a horrible and selfish person. now before everyone that reads this, (and there isn't that many of you) starts going nuts and reassuring me that i'm not horrible or selfish let me explain. i was thinking wait scratch that i was brooding over recent events that have happened to me and around me. now i was quite unhappy about these events. these events also contributed to a problem. so through my anger i was seeking a solution the problem that had arisen inside of me. by running all the scenarios through my head and going over what would probably happen in every situation. i just realized something. this isn't going to make any sense to anyone because i have to be really vague about the whole thing. well i guess we'll just leave it at the fact that i'm selfish and horrible. you can't make a person do what you want, he/she is going to do what the want regardless of your influence, etc. i'm also starting to believe that this is all a bad sort of karma that i had coming for things that i did in the past. the big thing that has been on my mind lately is really similar to something that i did to someone else about 2 or 3 years ago. i want something i can't have. i know this and yet i still try to attain it. what's the point of that? there isn't one, but i can't deny what my feelings tell me, that's just not humanly possible. so i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. i can't say anything about how i feel for fear of destroying everything. maybe i should just talk everything out. you're smart though, i'm sure you have some inkling of what i'm talking about. so call me or something. end.

lightthefuse @ 2004-06-04T23:36:00

2004-06-05T03:36:14Z

i'm considerably preturbed at the moment. as always it's at my own doing. i shouldn't ask the questions to which i don't want to know the answers. i'm buying painting supplies tomorrow while i'm in orlando, then i'm going to spend a couple of days brooding over the things i hate most. fuck girls all over again.

lightthefuse @ 2004-05-29T11:04:00

2004-05-29T15:04:53Z

HOLY SHIT I ACTUALLY POSTED SOMETHING IN MY JOURNAL!!!!

lightthefuse @ 2004-05-29T11:04:00

2004-05-29T15:04:21Z

i don't want to get off on a rant or anything, but the sudden craze of plastic surgery fixes regular people's lives reality shows is starting to drive me nuts. i mean just a couple of years women were all gossiping about how pam anderson's boobs made women look cheap, slutty, whorish, etc. and now suddenly it's an acceptable thing for someone to go on one of these "make me look pretty" reality shows like the swan, or extreme makeover and become more acceptable to the eyes. oh and these people get more than just boob jobs, i mean i've watched these shows a couple of times and everytime i've seen one of them, the person always gets one of each of these:
1. brow lift/botox
2. chin implant
3. liposuction
4. dental work
5. porcelain veneers- aka fake teeth
6. nose job
7. teeth whitening
these shows are making people think that it's acceptable to get plastic surgery. and again this will be how americans get the quick fix. americans are always looking for the bigger, better, faster way of doing things no matter the cost. i mean just look at how many diets/diet pills are out in the world. of course plastic surgery would be the faster/better answer to losing weight. people will still eat shit everyday of their life and they'll just go get it lipoed out. the damn shows are also making it seem like plastic surgery is cheap. well its not. it's still the same prices it was a couple years ago if not more. i mean we're talking thousands of fucking dollars just so you can look more acceptable to people that really don't give a shit? i mean yes plastic surgery does have it good points. such as if you're born looking like sloth from the goonies you can prolly get some plastic surgery to look halfway normal, and you wouldn't be doing it to impress people. you'd be doing it to look like the norm not some fucking joan rivers or cher clone. cher's like what 50 something? and she prolly has less wrinkles than me. the bottom line is if you're overweight you should work to get to be where you want to be. not run out and get liposuction. although you may feel gratification immediately, working out and losing weight the right way will make you feel a lot better in the long run.

lightthefuse @ 2004-05-04T19:58:00

2004-05-04T23:58:50Z

i just wanted to let everyone know that i have the internet in my room now. SO SEND ME ALL YOUR HOMEMADE PORN!!! hahaha. just kidding. no really.

lightthefuse @ 2004-04-22T04:26:00

2004-04-22T08:26:57Z

so i don't know what it is with my life sucking right now but it fucking needs to stop. like this past week has been fucking hell. first my dad has turned into a fucking alcoholic asshole and i'm currently not speaking to him. the reason in my opinion that he is an asshole is because he's telling me that i need to do more around the fucking house and i need to go into the navy earlier and all this other shit. 1. i do more around the fucking house than david does. seriously david fucking does shit around the house. 2. i pay fucking rent so that should count for something 3. i work every fucking day full fucking time. 4. david just failed two fucking classes at school and he still spends like 2 hours on the fucking internet every fucking day doing fucking nothing. and i said that nobody fucking wanted me in the house to begin with and he fucking told me i was right. what kind of shit was that? what kind of thing is that to say to your oldest fucking son? yeah so, i went to the recruiter yesterday and put in the paper work or whatever so that i can go in early hopefully. but it's not a sure thing, there has to be an open spot for me to go, and somehow i doubt that will happen. so i'll prolly end up shipping off at the end of november just like i'm sposed to. anyway, my week got really really really fucking shitty tonite. some fucking floridian fuckass stole my scooter right out of my fucking driveway. what fucking shit is that?!?!?!?! and i called the police when i found out and they fucking said that i needed a bill of sale or a title proving that the damn thing was mine. why would i report the damn thing stolen if i was the one stealing it dumbasses? what so you can arrest me? yeah how fucking stupid is that? so now i'm fucking scooterless and everyone else that lives in my house fucking hates me. yeah i've used the word fuck 25 times in this post. such a great word. i need a hug and some hard liquor.

lightthefuse @ 2004-02-06T13:53:00

2004-02-06T19:01:14Z

so i think that once i'm actually in the navy i'm going to buy a scion tc. that car looks pretty fucking slick. http://www.scion.com/drive/gallery/drive_tc_gallery.html

lightthefuse @ 2004-02-03T01:35:00

2004-02-03T06:35:20Z

your silence makes my mind spin
it thinks upon too many things about you
i know you're scared.
i'm scared too.
i've never broken a heart.
i don't plan to start with yours.
i'm not going to pretend that i know you because i don't yet.
all i can say is to cut away old endings
and welcome new beginnings
i can wait
but i won't wait forever

dear livejournal,
what's been going on? oh wait nothing. you're a computer program. i on the other hand have been doing quite a lot. i've been meeting a lot of new people cuz of jon. which is pretty cool i guess. i've been emptying quite a bit of money out of my bank account which isn't good at all. but i may be getting a job at winn dixie so that will be more money coming in, then i don't have to worry about touching my bank account. i may end up getting a job there and a job at bruester's the new ice cream shop opening up in town. that way i'll be making some decent money. so yeah, i'll be working hopefully before i go into the navy. then it's navy for four years along with college. after that dave school, and then career. it's nice having plans and goals. i'm happy that i know what i want to do and that i know how to achieve it. i'm going to be a computer tech while i'm in the navy, so that will help me out greatly with persuing what i want to do when i'm out of the navy. now if only i could find that elusive love i've been waiting for. someone told me the other day that i'm the "chick flick hero." heh. it cracked me up. anyway, i don't really know what else to type about. a bunch of kickass bands are coming to orlando here pretty soon. it's gonna be sweet. i hope i get to see all of them. i need to start exercising soon, so that i'm ready for boot camp. cuz if i don't, boot camp is going to kick my fucking ass. other than that i really don't have any plans. i have a girl on my mind, but i'm not sure what's going on with her so yeah. i wish i could say more, but i have nothing more to say. ♥

lightthefuse @ 2004-01-31T20:25:00

2004-02-01T01:27:23Z

last night was one of the best nights of my life. i'm not going to go into details, but it was just fantastic. it was seriously one of my dreams come true and i owe it all to YOU.

lightthefuse @ 2004-01-24T10:13:00

2004-01-24T15:13:14Z

THIS IS A TEST